Friday, August 03, 2007


Hey, High and Hello again! Yeah i'm connected to the internet again! Geez, without the internet i'm disconnected from the rest of the world it seems like. How fucking scary is that eh?

Well, not all that much has been going on. Working like fucking mad.

My boss was on vacation for two weeks, so i was working full time :-( Yuck! Fuck working full time! Especially at a job i'm increasingly getting sick of.

So my boss came back this week, and i was SO happy to see her! It was nice not having to deal with her drama all the time though, the woman can not function right unless she has some sort of crisis going on in her life. She wasn't back to work nearly 5 hours before she found SOMETHING to get all pissed about.


Anyway, i've been kind of depressed lately about the whole career thing. I feel like i'm stuck in my job, and i really do not like it anymore. The thing about that is, what if i decide to do all this shit and spend on this money on culinary school and then a few years later i change my mind and decide i don't like working in a kitchen?

2 or 3 years ago i fucking loved my job and fought and put up will all kinds of shit to get to where i am now, and now i'm only a year and a half into the job and i'm already sick of it.

Maybe it's because i've found something i actually love doing and going into work now is really hard.

I dunno, all i know is i feel stuck and it fucking sucks!


not only that but i think i'm starting to have second thoughts on becoming a chef as well! And for stupid, retarded reasons but i can't help that i'm feeling this way.

I really want to learn to cook awesome food and to be respected as a chef, but on the other hand i've gained massive weight sense i've discovered how much i like food.

It sucks, i love food now and you can tell when you look at me!

Shopping for clothes now has never been more depressing. And i know i shouldn't bring myself down about retarded shit like this but it's hard. I look at old pictures of me and i look nothing like i use to. At least in my eyes i think i don't look anything alike.

And if i wanna be a chef i'm gonna have to taste food that really isn't figure friendly. And that's just it right there i have yet to try different foods from different countries.

Like on the Travel Channel they have a show on there that i've been getting into with Chef Anthony Bourdain "No Reservations" where he travels all around the world just to try different foods. No he doesn't eat like bugs or cows balls or anything like that.

But it made me realize how much i have to see and to taste in this vast world we live in.

And i want to start off in Italy :-)

And especially in Italy not all of their foods are what you'd call light.

Those Italians love their pork man!


Not only do i have that dilemma but my family (well let me take that back, my kids) don't appreciate anything i give them to eat. Like last night for example.

I made my first ever spaghetti and meatballs, i made the meatballs myself and what do my kids do? Bitch about it right away, saying it's yucky! Yeah, i know kids like to eat nothing but sugary crap but it does bother me and it does make me feel bad. Unless i bake a cake or cookies or something it seems like they absolutely hate my cooking. My mom has told me Clarissa says she likes my cooking but she doesn't like it when i put onions in stuff. Which i put onions in pretty much EVERYTHING i cook! And i can see where she's coming from cuz i use to hate onions myself until ironically i was pregnant with Clarissa. Go figure huh?

But every time i cook something and make them eat it, Clarissa either gets up and trys to throw it away or Adara starts crying cuz she doesn't want it eat it. I know they're kids and i just shouldn't let it get to me, but these are the people i cook for the most besides myself and they absolutely hate my cooking! I can't help but let it bother me.

Justin sometimes make comments about what he likes but other times he doesn't say anything.
It's kind of hard cuz at times i wish i was in Top Chef scenario where i was cooking for a panel of judges so they could give me some feed back on what i'm doing right and what i'm doing wrong.

It's kind of frustrating but on the other hand my boyfriend and my kids aren't experts and i shouldn't really be looking to them for advice i guess.

I need to go to school, that's the answer i guess.

Ok, i've babbled for too long, i gotta get a hold of my brother soon. Tonight we're going to a concert at Red Rocks, it sounds like it's gonna be pretty boring but i told him i'd go with him cuz he had no one else to go with. He kind of suckered me into it and told me it was a coffee festival, and come to find out last night when i finally had access to the internet that the whole concert is a Starbucks concert. I would exactly call that a "Coffee Festival" that was a little misleading :-(

Guess i'll be listening to hillbilly rock and sucking down triple grande crapola.

See ya....

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

RON PAUL - AMERICA'S HERO

This video pretty much sums up Ron Paul :-)

Thursday, July 12, 2007


"Pasteurized process cheese, for example, is made from one or more cheeses, such as cheddar or colby, and may have cream or anhydrous milkfat added. The cheese is blended and heated with an emulsifier—typically a sodium or potassium phosphate, tartrate, or citrate—and other optional ingredients such as water, salt, artificial color, and spices or other flavorings.

Pasteurized process cheese food is a variation of process cheese that may have dry milk, whey solids, or anhydrous milkfat added, which reduces the amount of cheese in the finished product. It must contain at least 51% of the cheese ingredient by weight, have a moisture content less than 44%, and have at least 23% milkfat."

So cheese food is something edible, and contains at least half of what it purports to be." - http://www.foodmuseum.com




Here i am at 3 in the morning on my night off, and i can't sleep! I hate nights like this.
Too many thoughts floating around in my head right now i guess.
The next 2 weeks i'll be working a lot more than usual, my boss is officially on vacation for 2 weeks after today.
I'm kind of looking forward to it actually, i work a lot better and i get into it a lot more when she's not around and doesn't come up to me 3 or 4 times during the night to bitch about something or someone.

I've really been getting into my cooking lately. The last three or four days i've cooked my ass off.
Some good things and some definite disappointments. I tried Giada De Larentiis's "Zeppole", it's Italian street food, a pastry deep fried in olive oil and rolled in vanilla cinnamon sugar.
Sounds good huh? Well, i dunno if i just didn't scoop out the dough small enough or if i didn't fry em long enough, but they came out to taste like an eclair kinda without the chocolate. Clarissa said she liked em but i didn't , i didn't like the weird creaminess in the middle, i expected it to be more of like a Mexican Sopapia.
My second miss was my spaghetti from dinner tonight. I've been kind of letting my mind flow on certain foods i feel comfortable with and creating my own dishes finally and so far i still need a lot of practice and a lot more different flavor combinations i need to taste.
Tonight i did a spicy sausage tomato sauce with spaghetti and chunks of fresh mozzarella, with freshly grated Parmigano Reggiano. The sausage i used didn't flow very well with the pasta i think. The sausage brought a weird smokey flavor to the traditional Italian flavors i had used in the tomato sauce.
I haven't gone too off into the far unknown space of my imagination when it comes to cooking just yet. I've played with Philly Cheese steak, different breakfast dishes and some pasta ones.
But i'm not totally confident with my cooking skills at this point in time.
It's on the house wife level, sad but true.
For one i'm struggling with such easy foods to cook that i cook all the time! The other night i finally got it to the point where it wasn't completely fucked up. Steak and french fries.
It's been so hard to cook a steak medium well! Seriously, now i know why chefs don't like cooking em like that cuz it sucks! I always try to cook them medium well cuz that's how Justin likes em. It's either overdone or too pink. I'm becoming a medium person now, i use to like steaks well done, but then i slowly started to like em medium well. Now that's just too brown for me.
I probably should use a thermometer but i wanna learn how to tell if it's done without having to use one.
And the french fries, i have such a patience problem when i fry them, or i'm putting in too many at a time and they're not browning properly.

And finally nacho cheese! Before i got into cooking i use to make nachos at home by buying a can of that Mission Nacho Cheese "Sauce" but they discontinued it a while back and i've been trying to think up ways in my mind to reproduce that cheese at home.
So i bought a block of Velveeta Cheese and at first microwaved it. Big fucking mistake. That disgusting cheese just turned into like a paste after it chilled for a little while.
So then i melted it over the stove with some cream. Fantastic! Got the nacho cheese consistency i was looking for but... the nasty taste of the Velveeta Cheese ruined the entire nacho experiance!
I haven't eaten that cheese in so long, i'm just becoming to realize just how disgusting and nasty it is! When i was a kid i use to love Velveeta Cheese!
For one, it doesn't even taste like cheese! Jesus it has this thick disgusting taste that just lingers in your mouth.
Anyway, so next time i'm gonna do the same thing over the stove with the cream but use real fucking cheese this time. maybe use a fontina cheese, and some others they use in fondue.
Ugh, fuck Velveeta!
Ok, it's almost 4 i better get to bed or i'll be sleeping all morning.
See ya..

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Well The Forth and July came and went this year. Millions of Americans outside, grilling burgers, having beers and enjoying the pretty lights in the sky.
This year i took a different approach to the holiday than i ever have in years past.
I've really been reading a lot and watching shows on the American Revolution (well, when cable actually shows anything like that.)
This year the History Channel and the Military Channel had a day long marathon on The American Revolution. That was nice of them wasn't it?

But reading and watching all of this shit has really made me very sad at the state of our nation right now. I mean i was sad and pissed about it to begin with, but i look back at what the founding fathers fought for and how we live under a dictatorship now.
I mean Dick Cheney has pretty much come out and said he can do whatever he wants, and the law does not apply to him. That by definition is a dictatorship.
Ya know and never mind the Presidential Directive that Bush signed real quietly a few months back that gave him dictatorial powers, and not one peep in the press whatsoever, except for those few patriots left in the American Press who still pay attention.

Anyhow, for my own personal celebration of this years 4th of July, i went back and read quotes from some of our Founding Fathers during the Revolutionary War and decided to post them up here on my blog. Take the time to read them and remember the real reason why we celebrate the 4th of July, and how we got to that point of freeing an entire nation.
I have to be honest, reading some of these quotes did nothing more than make me cry, it's so obvious we are living under tyranny now.




How strangely will the Tools of a Tyrant pervert the plain Meaning of Words!
- Samuel Adams

It does not require a majority to prevail, but rather an irate, tireless minority keen to set brush fires in people's minds. - Samuel Adams

Guard with jealous attention the public liberty. Suspect everyone who approaches that jewel. Unfortunately, nothing will preserve it but downright force. Whenever you give up that force, you are inevitably ruined. -Patrick Henry

It behooves you, therefore, to think and act for yourself and your people. The great principles of right and wrong are legible to every reader; to pursue them requires not the aid of many counselors. The whole art of government consists in the art of being honest. Only aim to do your duty, and mankind will give you credit where you fail. - Thomas Jefferson

The spirit of resistance to government is so valuable on certain occasions, that I wish it to be always kept alive. It will often be exercised when wrong, but better so than not to be exercised at all. I like a little rebellion now and then. It is like a storm in the atmosphere. - Thomas Jefferson

On every unauthoritative exercise of power by the legislature must the people rise in rebellion or their silence be construed into a surrender of that power to them? If so, how many rebellions should we have had already? - Thomas Jefferson

Without Freedom of Thought there can be no such Thing as Wisdom; and no such Thing as Public Liberty, without Freedom of Speech. - Benjamin Franklin

Our country is in danger, but not to be despaired of. Our enemies are numerous and powerful; but we have many friends, determining to be free, and heaven and earth will aid the resolution. On you depend the fortunes of America. You are to decide the important question, on which rest the happiness and liberty of millions yet unborn. Act worthy of yourselves. - Joesph Warren

These are the times that try men's' souls. The summer soldier and the sunshine patriot will, in this crisis, shrink from the service of their country; bur that stands it now, deserves the love and thanks of man and woman. Tyranny.....is not easily conquered; yet we have this consolation with us, that the harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. -Thomas Paine

If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace. -Thomas Paine

Freedom had been hunted round the globe; reason was considered as rebellion; and the slavery of fear had made men afraid to think. But such is the irresistible nature of truth, that all it asks, and all it wants, is the liberty of appearing. -Thomas Paine

Revolution was effected before the war commenced. The Revolution was in the minds and hearts of the people . . . . This radical change in the principles, opinions, sentiments, and affections of the people was the real American Revolution. -John Adams

I must study politics and war that my sons may have liberty to study mathematics and philosophy. -
John Adams

Let justice be done though the heavens should fall. -John Adams

Government is instituted for the common good; for the protection, safety, prosperity, and happiness of the people; and not for profit, honor, or private interest of any one man, family, or class of men; therefore, the people alone have an incontestable, unalienable, and indefeasible right to institute government; and to reform, alter, or totally change the same, when their protection, safety, prosperity, and happiness require it. -John Adams


Monday, July 02, 2007


"I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existence either. See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you." - Tool





I'm about to have a fucking meltdown. My level of tolerance is starting to drift away... far away. My anger and level of disgust for the general American population for our tolerance of fascism sweeping our nation has reached it's breaking point.
I mean i seriously think i need to go to therapy to deal with all this pent up anger i have towards everyone! I've discovered i CAN NOT have a rational conversation with anyone! Maybe on the Tool message boards i can find like minded people there who agree with the way i look at the world, but there's still those people out there who are just content to live under the new America where the Bill of Rights is no longer.
But even on the tool message boards i get those idiots still wrapped up in there left/right paradigm and it just makes me wanna puke!!
Like when I found out Ron Paul was being banned for the Iowa Republican debate (they're calling it a "forum" but it's still a debate, they're distorting words again) i put up a call to action thread to call Iowans for Tax Relief and Iowa Christian Alliance, the two groups banning Ron Paul. I got Ron Paul supporters but then i got stupid Amy Goodman spawn replying,"Ron Paul doesn't believe in a womans right to choose, so i can't vote for him" or i'd get shit like,"He wants to get rid of too much of the Federal Government, and for me a left leaning voter, i can't vote for him."

JESUS CHRIST!! The country is fucking gone and Ron Paul is the only one who can beat Hillary Clinton and these fucking idiots are worried about bullshit!! No Ron Paul is not against a womans right to choose he has said he himself is against abortion but he thinks it should be left up to states not the federal government.
And he fucking read the constitution and understood what the founding fathers meant by smaller limited government, that's why he wants to cut so many federal programs that are just a humongous bureaucracy to begin with. THAT'S WHY HE'S A CONSTITUTIONALIST YOU MORONS!!!
I mean jesus, you really wanna keep around the Department of Education, the mother of the No Child Left Behind Act? Gee, that program was a giant fucking success.
And repealing the 16th amendment! Just for that alone and closing the Federal Reserve would solve a WHOLE lot of our problems in this country. And you'd know that if you fucking went and looked up the facts about the income tax fraud. The money you pay for the income tax does not go back to the country it goes to the Private bank the Federal Reserve to pay back the debt, because the Federal Reserve is printing money out of thin air, it's value is not backed up by silver or gold like it used to be.
Our money is of no more value than Monopoly money!! Do you fucking realize that???
Back when i was still calling myself a liberal, i knew shit was bad but until i had my paradigm shifted and my eyes opened i never really realized the bigger picture and just how fucked up things are! And i can't even go into all of it on this blog, i'd be blogging for days!

What Ron Paul would do for this country if he was just given the chance has actually given this pessimist HOPE for once in her life!! It's up there with what would of JFK done if he had never been killed, i mean it's THAT significant to get Ron Paul the Republican nomination.
I'm sure as hell not voting for Hillary or Obama. And who ever gets the nomination for the Democrats, i don't care who it is cuz they're all fucking worthless scum who won't change a fucking thing but shred the Constitution even further, and most likely drop a bomb on Iran!!!
Whoever gets it I'll be downtown protesting when they come to Denver for their convention of morons.

Oh man..... deeps breaths. See what i mean when i say i think i'm having a meltdown and i need to go into therapy?
Shit is really fucked up and i seem to be the only one in the state of Colorado who can see it! AHHHH!!!
I mean i'm to the point where i want to take gun shooting lessons because the ship is fucking sinking and i'm not going to go jump on a life boat. I'm going down with the ship and i'm going down shooting, just like the patriots in the revolutionary war. My mom has even said we need a new revolution!
Shit, if my own mother is even calling for Revolution you know shit if fucked!
Seriously i am so pent up with anger and rage over almost everything now! The media, the government, the cover-ups, the lies. The endless, endless LIES!!!!

I was watching on the History Channel "The JFK Assassination: Beyond Conspiracy" and while i sat through that 2 hour piece of shit "documentary" which is a huge lie in itself because it was a total white wash! They left out SO MANY key things about Oswald, Jack Ruby and towards the end it was just one giant hit piece against "JFK" the Oliver Stone movie.
At one point they were interviewing a member of the House Select Committee on Assassinations, and he made a statement,"no one has made a statement to this day about any evidence of it being anyone else other than Lee Harvey Oswald."
I wanted to throw shit at the T.V. so FUCKING BAD!!!
With the E. Howard Hunt tape just recently been released to public, and the information he has given before he died, totally rips apart that entire documentary and it should NOT be playing on the History Channel because it's just spreading disinformation and distorting reality.
I seriously was MAD!! I've even written to the History Channel about it and bitched at them for playing that government fabricated lie on national television.
AHHHHH!!!!!

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

What the FUCK?!?! What the FUCK?!?!?!
My zen was short lived, and the anger has returned....


Ron Paul Excluded in Iowa

Iowans for Tax Relief and Iowa Christian Alliance will host a presidential candidates forum on Saturday, June 30th in Des Moines. Republican presidential candidates Mitt Romney, Sam Brownback, Jim Gilmore, Mike Huckabee, Tommy Thompson, and Tom Tancredo will participate.

Ron Paul, however, will not participate. Why? Because he wasn’t invited.

We heard about this forum from numerous supporters in Iowa who asked why Dr. Paul was not going to participate. Those supporters assumed that Dr. Paul was invited.

The campaign office had not received an invitation so we called this morning; thinking we might have misplaced the invitation or simply overlooked it. Lew Moore, our campaign manager, called Mr. Edward Failor, an officer of Iowans for Tax Relief, to ask about it. To our shock, Mr. Failor told us Dr. Paul was not invited; he was not going to be invited; and he would not be allowed to participate. And when asked why, Mr. Failor refused to explain. The call ended.

Lew then called Mr. Steve Scheffler, president of the Iowa Christian Alliance, to talk with him. Mr. Scheffler did not answer so Lew left a message. He has yet to respond.

Why are the Iowans for Tax Relief and the Iowa Christian Alliance excluding the one Republican candidate who scored at the top of every online poll taken after the MSNBC, Fox News, and CNN debates? Why are they denying Iowans the opportunity to hear from the Republican presidential candidate whose popularity is growing by the day?

We couldn’t get answers to these questions from Messrs. Failor and Scheffler. Maybe you’ll have better luck. Their contact information is below.

It's ironic that on the same day we learned the Iowans for Tax Relief and the Iowa Christian Alliance excluded Dr. Paul from their candidates forum, we received a call from ABC News confirming Dr. Paul’s participation in its nationally broadcast August 5th debate to be held in Des Moines.

Kent Snyder, Chairman
Ron Paul 2008

Contact Information

Edward Failor
Iowans for Tax Relief
2610 Park Avenue
Muscatine, Iowa 52761
Phone: 563-288-3600 or 877-913-3600
Fax: 563-264-2413
E-mail: itr@taxrelief.org
Web Site

Steve Scheffler, President
Iowa Christian Alliance
939 Office Park Road, Suite 115
West Des Moines, Iowa 50265
Phone: 515-225-1515
Fax: 515-225-1826
E-mail: slscheffler@iowachristian.com
Web Site

Thursday, June 14, 2007

"It is dissent from government policies that defines the true patriot and champion of liberty"- Ron Paul


Ok, i'll stop being such a baby. About my last post.... It's just fucking FRUSTRATING!!! It just seems to me like the entire country now is fucking pissed off at the government and NOTHING is happening!!!! For those of you who still think we live under our rights that are guaranteed under the constitution... look how nothing is happening!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE WILL OF THE PEOPLE???????

Ok, just had to get that out.

Ron Paul equals revolution, and that's exactly what we need. We need to learn from those who fought in the Revolutionary War. We all need to retake High School American History and LEARN. We need to all look back on the rise of Hitler and the Nazi's and all be deeply disturbed how history is repeating itself, and we just sit back and watch Paris Hilton being escorted to jail, while a Waco/Ruby Ridge style siege is being formed right now in New Hampshire because this couple found out the income tax was a fraud and that they didn't want to pay the illegitimate income tax that funds the private bank, The Federal Reserve.
AHHHHHHH!!!!
Ok, ill stop.

Thursday, June 07, 2007


Based on Ron Paul's recent surge in popularity, statistical analyst claims that Ron Paul is the underdog candidate of the 2008 election.






The Smart Money is on Ron Paul for President in 2008

Article written by
http://www.nflsystems.com

Many of you have never heard of Ron Paul but don't worry ... you will. Ron Paul is a 2008 Republican candidate running to become president. Some pollsters do not even include him in their polls. And those that do, show him non-existent to 3% maximum. The first caucuses and primaries are 7 months away, so how can Paul go from unknown to presidential candidate?

The first thing to realize is that Ron Paul is not an unknown. Unknown candidates usually have trouble winning election because of the lack of familiarity that voters have with them. If the voter does not know a candidate, how can they vote on you. But things have changed with the Internet. He is one of the most famous politicians on the Internet right now.

Once the election season gets closer and more people start flocking to the Internet for information, voters will start to learn about Ron Paul. This will provide a natural boost for Paul that other candidates will not have. In fact, if you avoided watching the mainstream media and the polls, you would feel that Ron Paul was by far the front runner.

The other important thing to note is that Ron Paul is the only Republican candidate to oppose the war. This is critical because it means that the anti-war Republican vote will almost exclusively be on his side. And the pro-war vote would be split among all the other candidates, and there are 9 of them! It would be as if the two greatest basketball players were put on the same team, their individual scoring averages would drop considerably to the point that the third best player would end up outscoring them by nature of the fact that he is the only option of another less successful team.

We are not trying to say Ron Paul is the third best or anything but just trying to show clear distinctions between Ron Paul and the rest of the field that should benefit him. If you imagine a horrible scenario in which 5,000 soldiers were to die in the two months before any of the primaries and caucuses, I think we can all agree that both the Republicans and Democrats would be voting to end this war. Ron Paul represents the Republicans only hope to win the Presidency in that situation.

70% of the American people are against the War. Only 29% of people approve of George Bush as a President and this all would bode well for Ron Paul in the general election. War hawk candidates like John McCain and Rudy Giuliani will have very little chance to win.

With sports prediction, we always make an effort to make plays based on value. It is easy for someone to predict the favorite to win i.e. Giuliani and Clinton but the art of smart handicapping is to make picks on the individuals with the most value. Because if you consistently make plays this way, you will win in the long run. Ron Paul is exactly that, a very smart value play.

Many offshore books are offering wagers on the presidential race. It is illegal to do so in Las Vegas. And the odds on him winning the general election and being sworn in as our next president can be as high as 100:1.

Friday, June 01, 2007

These guys are my new favorite activist group. Wearechange.org is a group out of NYC who are 9/11 activists. Just in the last two weeks alone they've confronted David Rockefeller (at his house! God these guys have balls!), Rudy Giuliani twice in one day, and then again this week.
They asked John Edwards and Al Gore about the New World Order. They haven't posted the videos for John Edwards and Al Gore yet, but i can't wait to see it!
Giuliani IS SO FUCKING EVIL!!!! The video in this article i've posted is so crazy! I saw the other video they had where this girl who is a 9/11 family member, was shaking hands with Rudy Giuliani and asked him why on 9/11 he told in an interview to Peter Jennings that he knew the towers were going to fall, and why he didn't tell anyone to try to save the people. And then she added,"How can you sleep at night?", and Giuliani just looks up and smiles and lies and says he had no idea that the towers were going to fall, when that directly contradicts what he told Peter Jennings that very morning!!
This video the group just posted yesterday is even better cuz they're across the street from a fundraiser Giuliani is attending and there's a group of 9/11 family members across the street booing him!
So when he comes out of the fundraiser the We are Change people follow him with their cameras and ask him questions about 9/11 while he's trying to sign autographs. And Giuliani just stands there and grins the whole time!!!
Fucking incredible!!! These guys have balls, and they're protesting in front of all the right people, and actually getting media attention! Nice!!! :)




Tell the Truth Rudy
Giuliani Closed Off Streets to Avoid 9/11 Victims' Families
Some 50 Family Members and We Are Change Crew Demand Answers from Former Mayor on Trashing Remains of 9/11 Victims; Candidate Smiles, Laughs Behind Policy and Security Insulation


Aaron Dykes / JonesReport May 31, 2007


The We Are Change crew confronted Presidential candidate Rudy Giuliani for a second time yesterday, after a question regarding Giuliani's prior knowledge of WTC collapse gained national attention two days ago.

The question on WTC collapse was based on statements Giuliani made to Peter Jennings where he admitted he was given prior warning to the collapse .

Giuliani's campaign stop was met by approximately 50 members of 9/11 victims' families who booed and protested the self-proclaimed '9/11 hero' who actually neglected proper handling of remains-- including reported use of remains to fill potholes on roadways. The outspoken criticism was met only with a heavy police presence and a barricade street.

Change Confronts Giuliani
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Apparently Rudy Giuliani considers it important to sign mindless autographs and simply smile his way through a crowd, but does not care to respond to the concerns of those most effected by the 9/11 attacks, despite the fact that he referred to himself as a "9/11 survivor" during the most recent Republican debate.

Members of We Are Change specifically asked him to address why he did not warn firefighters, police and other first responders that buildings would collapse in the WTC complex-- which might have saved hundreds of further lives-- despite the fact that he was told the buildings would collapse.


Giuliani did not speak with any family members on this stop, but his security forces pushed critics away from further coverage of the event, including members of We Are Change, as the video shows.

The group intends to continue pursuing Giuliani to expose his prior knowledge of collapse and obtain a satisfactory answer as the campaign continues.






Thursday, May 31, 2007

Cindy Sheehan: Twin Towers' Collapse Looked Like Controlled Demolition
Anti-war icon supports move for new investigation into 9/11

Prison Planet | May 31, 2007
Paul Joseph Watson

Anti-war icon Cindy Sheehan has gone public on her support for the 9/11 truth movement after she told a radio show that the collapse of the twin towers looked like a controlled demolition and that there should be a new investigation into the terrorist attacks.


Sheehan, who made headlines this week after she distanced herself from the Democratic party and the establishment left, joined Alex Jones to share her views on her skepticism towards the official 9/11 story.

Sheehan said her decision to desert the Democrats was sparked last week when the Iraq war funding bill was passed and it was at this point she realized the Democrats had co-opted her simply to help them regain Congress and that they had no interest in ending the war.

Sheehan attacked Hillary Clinton as a "warhawk and a "warmonger" and said there was very little distinction between her and John McCain or Rudy Giuliani.

On 9/11, Sheehan expressed her support for the Jersey Girl's petition, which calls for a new independent investigation of the terrorist attacks, slamming the 9/11 Commission Report as a "total travesty and a smokescreen."

"George Bush and Dick Cheney held hands and testified behind closed doors, not under oath," said Sheehan, adding, "There are many things that just don't add up on that day."

Sheehan questioned why U.S. air defenses were distracted by drills and exercises scheduled for the morning of 9/11 and why standard operating procedure for intercepting errant aircraft was not followed for the first and only time in history.

"When you lose control of an airplane, you intercept it with a military jet and that should only take seconds - from what I understand it's not even an order to do that it's mandatory," said Sheehan.

Speaking on the collapse of the twin towers, Sheehan stated, "It does look to me like a controlled demolition - I'm not an expert - but it does look to me like a controlled demolition - I'm looking at common sense."

"I do see some very high profile people saying it was an inside job," concluded Sheehan.

Click here to listen to Sheehan's interview on the Alex Jones Show.





Never has the Natalie Merchant song "Thick As Thieves" spoke to the time we're living in so much.....

Remember how it all began

The apple and the fall of man
The price we paid
So the people say

Down the path of shame and let us dare
To bite the hand that fed us
Fairy tale, the moral end
Wheel of fortune, never turns again
Never turns again

The worst of it has come and gone
In the chaos of millennium
And the falling out
Of the doomsday crowd
Their last retreat is moving slow
They burn their bridges as they go
The heretic is beautified
Teach the harlots child to smile

Rocked again by indecision
Should we make that small incision
Testify, to the bleeding heart inside
We cut, we scratched
We ran, and we slashed
And when he opened up at last
Found a cul de sac
Deepened black
Of smoke and ash
Deepened black
Smoke and ash

The wicked king of parody
Is kissing all his enemies
On the seventh day
On the seventh week
The tyrants voice has softened now
But just for one forgiving hour
Before the rise of his
Iron fist again
Fist again

Ive come tonight
Ive come to know
The way we are the way well go
And to measure this
The width of the wide abyss

Ive come to you in restless sleep
Were all your dreams turned bitter sweet
With voodoo doll philosophies
Day gloy holy trinities
The wicked raft that leaves the shore
Of ferries drunken souls a board
Pilgrims march to compostela
Of visions of their saint in yellow

Follow deep in trance
Lost in a catatonic dance
Know no future
Damn the past
Blind war, ecstatic
To save their lives


Wednesday, May 30, 2007
















WHY THE FUCK ISN'T ANYONE TALKING ABOUT THIS?????!!!!!!!




New presidential directive gives Bush dictatorial power
National Security & Homeland Security Presidential Directive establishes "National Continuity Policy"


Global Research, May 21, 2007



The National Security and Homeland Security Presidential Directive, signed on May 9, 2007 declares that in the event of a “catastrophic event”, George W. Bush can become what is best described as "a dictator":

"The President shall lead the activities of the Federal Government for ensuring constitutional government."

This directive, completely unnoticed by the media, and given no scrutiny by Congress, literally gives the White House unprecedented dictatorial power over the government and the country, bypassing the US Congress and obliterating the separation of powers. The directive also placed the Secretary of Homeland Security in charge of domestic “security”.

The full text is below. A critical analysis on the directive can be found here.

This is another step towards official martial law (see “US government fans homeland security fears”), which suggests that a new "catastrophic event" 9/11-type pretext could be in the pipeline.


National Security and Homeland Security Presidential Directive

NATIONAL SECURITY PRESIDENTIAL DIRECTIVE/NSPD 51

HOMELAND SECURITY PRESIDENTIAL DIRECTIVE/HSPD-20

Subject: National Continuity Policy

Purpose

(1) This directive establishes a comprehnsive national policy on the continuity of Federal Government structures and operations and a single National Continuity Coordinator responsible for coordinating the development and implementation of Federal continuity policies. This policy establishes "National Essential Functions," prescribes continuity requirements for all executive departments and agencies, and provides guidance for State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector organizations in order to ensure a comprehensive and integrated national continuity program that will enhance the credibility of our national security posture and enable a more rapid and effective response to and recovery from a national emergency.

Definitions

(2) In this directive:

(a) "Category" refers to the categories of executive departments and agencies listed in Annex A to this directive;

(b) "Catastrophic Emergency" means any incident, regardless of location, that results in extraordinary levels of mass casualties, damage, or disruption severely affecting the U.S. population, infrastructure, environment, economy, or government functions;

(c) "Continuity of Government," or "COG," means a coordinated effort within the Federal Government's executive branch to ensure that National Essential Functions continue to be performed during a Catastrophic Emergency;

(d) "Continuity of Operations," or "COOP," means an effort within individual executive departments and agencies to ensure that Primary Mission-Essential Functions continue to be performed during a wide range of emergencies, including localized acts of nature, accidents, and technological or attack-related emergencies;

(e) "Enduring Constitutional Government," or "ECG," means a cooperative effort among the executive, legislative, and judicial branches of the Federal Government, coordinated by the President, as a matter of comity with respect to the legislative and judicial branches and with proper respect for the constitutional separation of powers among the branches, to preserve the constitutional framework under which the Nation is governed and the capability of all three branches of government to execute constitutional responsibilities and provide for orderly succession, appropriate transition of leadership, and interoperability and support of the National Essential Functions during a catastrophic emergency;

(f) "Executive Departments and Agencies" means the executive departments enumerated in 5 U.S.C. 101, independent establishments as defined by 5 U.S.C. 104(1), Government corporations as defined by 5 U.S.C. 103(1), and the United States Postal Service;

(g) "Government Functions" means the collective functions of the heads of executive departments and agencies as defined by statute, regulation, presidential direction, or other legal authority, and the functions of the legislative and judicial branches;

(h) "National Essential Functions," or "NEFs," means that subset of Government Functions that are necessary to lead and sustain the Nation during a catastrophic emergency and that, therefore, must be supported through COOP and COG capabilities; and

(i) "Primary Mission Essential Functions," or "PMEFs," means those Government Functions that must be performed in order to support or implement the performance of NEFs before, during, and in the aftermath of an emergency.

Policy

(3) It is the policy of the United States to maintain a comprehensive and effective continuity capability composed of Continuity of Operations and Continuity of Government programs in order to ensure the preservation of our form of government under the Constitution and the continuing performance of National Essential Functions under all conditions.

Implementation Actions

(4) Continuity requirements shall be incorporated into daily operations of all executive departments and agencies. As a result of the asymmetric threat environment, adequate warning of potential emergencies that could pose a significant risk to the homeland might not be available, and therefore all continuity planning shall be based on the assumption that no such warning will be received. Emphasis will be placed upon geographic dispersion of leadership, staff, and infrastructure in order to increase survivability and maintain uninterrupted Government Functions. Risk management principles shall be applied to ensure that appropriate operational readiness decisions are based on the probability of an attack or other incident and its consequences.

(5) The following NEFs are the foundation for all continuity programs and capabilities and represent the overarching responsibilities of the Federal Government to lead and sustain the Nation during a crisis, and therefore sustaining the following NEFs shall be the primary focus of

the Federal Government leadership during and in the aftermath of an emergency that adversely affects the performance of Government Functions:

(a) Ensuring the continued functioning of our form of government under the Constitution, including the functioning of the three separate branches of government;

(b) Providing leadership visible to the Nation and the world and maintaining the trust and confidence of the American people;

(c) Defending the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic, and preventing or interdicting attacks against the United States or its people, property, or interests;

(d) Maintaining and fostering effective relationships with foreign nations;

(e) Protecting against threats to the homeland and bringing to justice perpetrators of crimes or attacks against the United States or its people, property, or interests;

(f) Providing rapid and effective response to and recovery from the domestic consequences of an attack or other incident;

(g) Protecting and stabilizing the Nation's economy and ensuring public confidence in its financial systems; and

(h) Providing for critical Federal Government services that address the national health, safety, and welfare needs of the United States.

(6) The President shall lead the activities of the Federal Government for ensuring constitutional government. In order to advise and assist the President in that function, the Assistant to the President for Homeland Security and Counterterrorism (APHS/CT) is hereby designated as the National Continuity Coordinator. The National Continuity Coordinator, in coordination with the Assistant to the President for National

Security Affairs (APNSA), without exercising directive authority, shall coordinate the development and implementation of continuity policy for executive departments and agencies. The Continuity Policy Coordination Committee (CPCC), chaired by a Senior Director from the Homeland Security Council staff, designated by the National Continuity Coordinator, shall be the main day-to-day forum for such policy coordination.

(7) For continuity purposes, each executive department and agency is assigned to a category in accordance with the nature and characteristics of its national security roles and

responsibilities in support of the Federal Government's ability to sustain the NEFs. The Secretary of Homeland Security shall serve as the President's lead agent for coordinating overall

continuity operations and activities of executive departments and agencies, and in such role shall perform the responsibilities set forth for the Secretary in sections 10 and 16 of this directive.

(8) The National Continuity Coordinator, in consultation with the heads of appropriate executive departments and agencies, will lead the development of a National Continuity Implementation Plan (Plan), which shall include prioritized goals and objectives, a concept of operations, performance metrics by which to measure continuity readiness, procedures for continuity and incident management activities, and clear direction to executive department and agency continuity coordinators, as well as guidance to promote interoperability of Federal Government continuity programs and procedures with State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector owners and operators of critical infrastructure, as appropriate. The Plan shall be submitted to the President for approval not later than 90 days after the date of this directive.

(9) Recognizing that each branch of the Federal Government is responsible for its own continuity programs, an official designated by the Chief of Staff to the President shall ensure that the executive branch's COOP and COG policies in support of ECG efforts are appropriately coordinated with those of

the legislative and judicial branches in order to ensure interoperability and allocate national assets efficiently to maintain a functioning Federal Government.

(10) Federal Government COOP, COG, and ECG plans and operations shall be appropriately integrated with the emergency plans and capabilities of State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector owners and operators of critical infrastructure, as appropriate, in order to promote interoperability and to prevent redundancies and conflicting lines of authority. The Secretary of Homeland Security shall coordinate the integration of Federal continuity plans and operations with State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector owners and operators of critical infrastructure, as appropriate, in order to provide for the delivery of essential services during an emergency.

(11) Continuity requirements for the Executive Office of the President (EOP) and executive departments and agencies shall include the following:

(a) The continuation of the performance of PMEFs during any emergency must be for a period up to 30 days or until normal operations can be resumed, and the capability to be fully operational at alternate sites as soon as possible after the occurrence of an emergency, but not later than 12 hours after COOP activation;

(b) Succession orders and pre-planned devolution of authorities that ensure the emergency delegation of authority must be planned and documented in advance in accordance with applicable law;

(c) Vital resources, facilities, and records must be safeguarded, and official access to them must be provided;

(d) Provision must be made for the acquisition of the resources necessary for continuity operations on an emergency basis;

(e) Provision must be made for the availability and redundancy of critical communications capabilities at alternate sites in order to support connectivity between

and among key government leadership, internal elements, other executive departments and agencies, critical partners, and the public;

(f) Provision must be made for reconstitution capabilities that allow for recovery from a catastrophic emergency and resumption of normal operations; and

(g) Provision must be made for the identification, training, and preparedness of personnel capable of relocating to alternate facilities to support the continuation of the performance of PMEFs.

(12) In order to provide a coordinated response to escalating threat levels or actual emergencies, the Continuity of Government Readiness Conditions (COGCON) system establishes executive branch continuity program readiness levels, focusing

on possible threats to the National Capital Region. The President will determine and issue the COGCON Level. Executive departments and agencies shall comply with the requirements and

assigned responsibilities under the COGCON program. During COOP activation, executive departments and agencies shall report their readiness status to the Secretary of Homeland Security or the Secretary's designee.

(13) The Director of the Office of Management and Budget shall:

(a) Conduct an annual assessment of executive department and agency continuity funding requests and performance data that are submitted by executive departments and agencies as part of the annual budget request process, in order to monitor progress in the implementation of the Plan and the execution of continuity budgets;

(b) In coordination with the National Continuity Coordinator, issue annual continuity planning guidance for the development of continuity budget requests; and

(c) Ensure that heads of executive departments and agencies prioritize budget resources for continuity capabilities, consistent with this directive.

(14) The Director of the Office of Science and Technology Policy shall:

(a) Define and issue minimum requirements for continuity communications for executive departments and agencies, in consultation with the APHS/CT, the APNSA, the Director of the Office of Management and Budget, and the Chief of Staff to the President;

(b) Establish requirements for, and monitor the development, implementation, and maintenance of, a comprehensive communications architecture to integrate continuity components, in consultation with the APHS/CT, the APNSA, the Director of the Office of Management and Budget, and the Chief of Staff to the President; and

(c) Review quarterly and annual assessments of continuity communications capabilities, as prepared pursuant to section 16(d) of this directive or otherwise, and report the results and recommended remedial actions to the National Continuity Coordinator.

(15) An official designated by the Chief of Staff to the President shall:

(a) Advise the President, the Chief of Staff to the President, the APHS/CT, and the APNSA on COGCON operational execution options; and

(b) Consult with the Secretary of Homeland Security in order to ensure synchronization and integration of continuity activities among the four categories of executive departments and agencies.

(16) The Secretary of Homeland Security shall:

(a) Coordinate the implementation, execution, and assessment of continuity operations and activities;

(b) Develop and promulgate Federal Continuity Directives in order to establish continuity planning requirements for executive departments and agencies;

(c) Conduct biennial assessments of individual department and agency continuity capabilities as prescribed by the Plan and report the results to the President through the APHS/CT;

(d) Conduct quarterly and annual assessments of continuity communications capabilities in consultation with an official designated by the Chief of Staff to the President;

(e) Develop, lead, and conduct a Federal continuity training and exercise program, which shall be incorporated into the National Exercise Program developed pursuant to Homeland Security Presidential Directive-8 of December 17, 2003 ("National Preparedness"), in consultation with an

official designated by the Chief of Staff to the President;

(f) Develop and promulgate continuity planning guidance to State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector critical infrastructure owners and operators;

(g) Make available continuity planning and exercise funding, in the form of grants as provided by law, to State, local, territorial, and tribal governments, and private sector critical infrastructure owners and operators; and

(h) As Executive Agent of the National Communications System, develop, implement, and maintain a comprehensive continuity communications architecture.

(17) The Director of National Intelligence, in coordination with the Attorney General and the Secretary of Homeland Security, shall produce a biennial assessment of the foreign and domestic threats to the Nation's continuity of government.

(18) The Secretary of Defense, in coordination with the Secretary of Homeland Security, shall provide secure, integrated, Continuity of Government communications to the President, the Vice President, and, at a minimum, Category I executive departments and agencies.

(19) Heads of executive departments and agencies shall execute their respective department or agency COOP plans in response to a localized emergency and shall:

(a) Appoint a senior accountable official, at the Assistant Secretary level, as the Continuity Coordinator for the department or agency;

(b) Identify and submit to the National Continuity Coordinator the list of PMEFs for the department or agency and develop continuity plans in support of the NEFs and the continuation of essential functions under all conditions;

(c) Plan, program, and budget for continuity capabilities consistent with this directive;

(d) Plan, conduct, and support annual tests and training, in consultation with the Secretary of Homeland Security, in order to evaluate program readiness and ensure adequacy and viability of continuity plans and communications systems; and

(e) Support other continuity requirements, as assigned by category, in accordance with the nature and characteristics of its national security roles and responsibilities

General Provisions

(20) This directive shall be implemented in a manner that is consistent with, and facilitates effective implementation of, provisions of the Constitution concerning succession to the Presidency or the exercise of its powers, and the Presidential Succession Act of 1947 (3 U.S.C. 19), with consultation of the Vice President and, as appropriate, others involved. Heads of executive departments and agencies shall ensure that appropriate

support is available to the Vice President and others involved as necessary to be prepared at all times to implement those provisions.

(21) This directive:

(a) Shall be implemented consistent with applicable law and the authorities of agencies, or heads of agencies, vested by law, and subject to the availability of appropriations;

(b) Shall not be construed to impair or otherwise affect (i) the functions of the Director of the Office of Management and Budget relating to budget, administrative, and legislative proposals, or (ii) the authority of the Secretary of Defense over the Department of Defense, including the chain of command for military forces from the President, to the Secretary of Defense, to the commander of military forces, or military command and control procedures; and

(c) Is not intended to, and does not, create any rights or benefits, substantive or procedural, enforceable at law or in equity by a party against the United States, its

agencies, instrumentalities, or entities, its officers, employees, or agents, or any other person.

(22) Revocation. Presidential Decision Directive 67 of October 21, 1998 ("Enduring Constitutional Government and Continuity of Government Operations"), including all Annexes thereto, is hereby revoked.

(23) Annex A and the classified Continuity Annexes, attached hereto, are hereby incorporated into and made a part of this directive.

(24) Security. This directive and the information contained herein shall be protected from unauthorized disclosure, provided that, except for Annex A, the Annexes attached to this directive are classified and shall be accorded appropriate handling, consistent with applicable Executive Orders.

GEORGE W. BUSH

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Ron Paul: Bad Foreign Policy Started with Woodrow Wilson

Only Ron Paul can beat Hillary Clinton!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Guiliani is a sucker of Satan's Cock!! I felt like i was watching some Nazi rally when the audience applauded when Guiliani and Tancredo endorsed torture. (that's not on this You Tube clip though. If you browse through the debate clips you'll find it, it's astounding.)

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

JFK Murder Plot "Deathbed Confession" Aired On National Radio
Former CIA agent, Watergate conspirator E. Howard Hunt names the men who killed Kennedy

Paul Joseph Watson
Prison Planet
Monday, April 30, 2007

The "deathbed confession" audio tape in which former CIA agent and Watergate conspirator E. Howard Hunt admits he was approached to be part of a CIA assassination team to kill JFK was aired this weekend - an astounding development that has gone completely ignored by the establishment media.

Saint John Hunt, son of E. Howard Hunt, appeared on the nationally syndicated Coast to Coast Live radio show on Saturday night to discuss the revelations contained in the tape.

Hunt said that his father had mailed cassette the tape to him alone in January 2004 and asked that it be released after his death. The tape was originally 20 minutes long but was edited down to four and a half minutes for the Coast to Coast broadcast. Hunt promises that the whole tape will be uploaded soon at his website.

Click here to listen to a clip of the tape.

E. Howard Hunt names numerous individuals with both direct and indirect CIA connections as having played a role in the assassination of Kennedy, while describing himself as a "bench warmer" in the plot. Saint John Hunt agreed that the use of this term indicates that Hunt was willing to play a larger role in the murder conspiracy had he been required.

Hunt alleges on the tape that then Vice President Lyndon B. Johnson was involved in the planning of the assassination and in the cover-up, stating that LBJ, "Had an almost maniacal urge to become president, he regarded JFK as an obstacle to achieving that."

Asked if his father followed the conspiracy theories into the Kennedy assassination, Saint John said the elder Hunt did follow the work of AJ Weberman, a New York freelance writer, who in the early 70's first accused Hunt of being one of three bums who were arrested in Dealy Plaza. The so-called bums (pictured above) were interrogated and later released by authorities shortly after the assassination. Weberman, one of the founders of the Youth International Party, the Vippies, published photographs of the tramps and found that two of them bore striking similarities to Hunt and Frank Sturgis, also named by Hunt in the tape as having been played a role in the assassination conspiracy.

Asked for his opinion as to whether his father was indeed one of the Dealy Plaza tramps, Saint John, in a stunning revelation, said one of the tramps indeed looked much like his father did in 1963 (see comparison above).

CIA operative Frank Stugis' striking resemblance to one of the "tramps".

Other researchers believe the "Hunt tramp" to really be Chauncey Holt, who apparently later confessed to the fact. Charles Harrelson was allegedly identified as the third tramp.

Saint John Hunt said that shortly before his death, his father had felt "deeply conflicted and deeply remorseful" that he didn't blow the whistle on the plot at the time and prevent the assassination, but that everyone in the government hated Kennedy and wanted him gone in one way or another. Kennedy's promise to "shatter the CIA into a thousand pieces and scatter the remnants to the wind" was being carried out and this infuriated almost everyone at the agency.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Kurt Vonnegut 1922-2007


"I wanted all things to seem to make some sense, so we could all be happy, yes, instead of tense. And I made up lies, so they all fit nice, and I made this sad world a paradise." - Kurt Vonnegut, from 'A Man Without A Country'

Monday, April 02, 2007

Rosie O'Donnell's and Elisabeth debate going into Iran and 9/11 theories

I'm not a big Rosie O'Donnell fan, never thought she was funny at all, but the last two weeks she's gone public on 9/11 on her blog, and here she said her views about the World Trade Center 7 collapse, on her t.v. show The View which is viewed by millions everyday. I never liked Elisabeth when she was on Survivor and i knew there was something about her that was demonic, and this clip definatly shows that side of her. She's a dumbed down Bush cheerleader who is still supporting the continual slaughter in our "war on terrorism" when the actual terrorists are the people Elisabeth says she trusts. She should drug out into the street and shot! Go Rosie!!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Pendulum


Jesus Christ been here and gone
What a painful price to pay
He's left his life in a thunderstorm
Tears cold dark eyes upon
Swing pendulum, swing low
Got no place to call my own
Oh my Lord don't you bother me
I'm as tired as a man can be
I'm as tired as a man can be

Jesus Christ been here and gone
What a painful place to leave
With frost on the limbs of a cherry tree
This cold, cold wind is buryin' me
Swing pendulum, swing slow
Got no time to call my own
Oh my Lord don't you bother me
I'm as tired as a man can be
I'm as tired as a man can be

-Mark Lanegan


Here i am. Up again at 6 in the fucking morning! The other day i woke up at 5:30 in the morning and couldn't go back to sleep.

Now here i am, up before the sun again. Aw, all the joys that come with working "grave yard shift." I use to really like it, well, i take that back, i still do in a lot of ways, but my sleeping patterns don't flow well with my kids' schedules. I feel so tired all the time, except....

When i'm cooking! Ah, i can't tell you how much i enjoy it! I feel kinda stupid saying that, cuz i never for once thought cooking was fun. I use to hate cooking. The other weekend i made these chicken enchiladas. FUNNEST dish ever to make!! From making the salsa verde to rolling the enchiladas, i thought that was the funnest dish i've made yet. And to my surprise when i deboned my chicken, i thought i'd be all grossed out but it was kinda fun ripping off the meat to a whole cooked chicken.
I kind of feel silly saying this, but it relaxes me, it really does, and i've heard so many chefs say that it is very relaxing to them. It gives me some focus, i only think about what i'm cooking, you can't let your mind wander to some other shit. You are completely and totally focused on cooking. I love it!! I love working with food, it's so fun!
And not to mention, a lot of the dishes i've been playing with (a good majority of them are Rachel Rays) are really healthy! I feel so much better about myself, and the food doesn't taste like diet food, it's really delicious. One of the reasons it's been so hard for me to eat healthy, is because all the stuff i had been trying that was "healthy" for you, had no flavor. Tasteless.
I really like that fact that when i cook for myself, i have total control over how much ingredients i use, and more importantly i KNOW what is going into my food.
I'm starting to get so grossed out when i look at the ingredients to a bag of chips, or some t.v. dinners i've been living off of.
It's been kind of fun having Justin try my food too cuz this is a man who once said to me,"if i could eat my food in pill form i would."
I'm hoping to kind of change his mind about food, that what your eating is life, its vibrate and wonderful. I've had so many different flavors flow through my mouth in the last 2 months. I feel so pissed at myself that for so long i've deprived my thousands and thousands of taste buds the joys of being used!
Like this weekend i discovered my new favorite candy! Dark chocolate covered coffee beans! FUCKING YUM!! I made a coffee shake with them that was awesome!! About a cup and a half of cold strong brewed coffee, about 3 big scoops of coffee ice cream, and about 6 or 7 dark chocolate covered coffee beans, blended together in a blender!
Oh my god, the best frozen coffee shake EVER!!!
I want to toy with the drinks a little and try cold espresso, but that's one barista no no, is you don't let your espresso go cold cuz it loses its flavor. But i have seen some frozen coffee recipes where it does ask for cold espresso.
Ah, to experiment with food, i love it!

Anyhow, in that aspect of my life at this point i'm feeling good about it and have accidentally put myself into a fork in the road.
I definitely have some sort of direction now of where i want to go, what i want to do in the grand scheme of things. Which really is a huge weight off my shoulders in a sense cuz now i have two things i can push for. If one thing doesn't pan out, i can try for the other. Or maybe i can bond the two somehow.

But all of this total fantasy at this point, of me leaving my current job and going off to be a chef or a barista somewhere, is TOTALLY teasing me right now! Jesus Christ, the last two months it has been SO hard for me to go to work. And when i'm at work, it has been so hard to make myself stay for an full shift. It sucks! I'm so sick of my job, so sick of the company i work for.
And i just get pissed at work and think about how much money i could of made making a latte right now, than hanging stickers on store shelves.
I see Starbucks everyday, especially early mornings on weekdays just pumping out the customers. One after the other, after the other. And I have to grip the wheel of my car, take a deep breath and count to ten cuz i get so MAD!!! That could be MY coffee shop pumping out the customers and actually giving them their money's worth for their coffee! Fuck man, each person walking out of that Starbucks at least paid $4 for their coffee. When you add that up, that's crazy profits.
And i have ideas in my head of what i want my shop to look like & to feel like. Almost to the point of where i'm already starting to create my coffee menu.
It's exciting to me, and i feel completely pumped about it! I threw out my idea to my brother, and he was surprisingly supportive, he thought it was a really cool idea.
I want like a Sisters Espresso environment where it's a kind of Victorian or European style house. I really want to go for the Amsterdam coffee house type look and feel. One thing i remember most about this one coffee shop we got our hash shakes at, i remember i loved the house it was in. It had an upstairs that was really cool, it had like glass on some of the floors so you could see downstairs.
It was kind of small but it had a cozy atmosphere to it.
My all white canvas in my head is starting to get paint splashed on to it now!

The depressing part to me though, is this future that i'm looking towards seems so long and bumpy right now. All i know is i'm gonna stick with my job now so i can prepare, practice and practice and practice.
I mean i'm still a little undecided about my espresso. I need to go back to certain coffee shops and compare their drinks to mine.


But anyhow, that's my thoughts for now. See ya...






Friday, March 16, 2007


"The Project for a New American Century, as recently as September 2000, likewise, foresaw the need for “a Pearl Harbor event” that would galvanize the American people to support their ambitious plans to ensure political and economic domination of the world, while strangling any potential “rival.” Recognizing a “need” for a Pearl Harbor event, and referring to Pearl Harbor as being “lucky” are not identical to support and knowledge of such an event, but this sympathy for a galvanizing event, as 9-11 turned out to be, was used to promote an agenda that strict constitutionalists and devotees of the Founders of this nation find appalling is indeed disturbing."
- Ron Paul on the floor of Congress, July 10, 2003


Now the last two posts i have tried to put up here for my cheer leading for Congressman Ron Paul who is running for President have mysteriously been deleted.
Hmmm, i smell big brother...

Anyhow, I'm gonna try this again and see what happens. Ok, so here we go...

Ron Paul is a Congressman from Texas, he's a doctor (an OBGYN, ha) and he is the closest thing i can find that really stands true to what i want in a president at this point. He actually knows the real problems that are going on.
He's calling to abolish the Federal Reserve, who no one has tried to do sense JFK and Abraham Lincoln. Unfortunately they both were assassinated for it. Ron Paul appeared in Aaron Russo's "From Freedom To Fascism" talking about how the Federal Reserve is private, and our income tax is going to pay these private bankers. Sad to say, but our income tax law is void. There is no law, and no body seems to have the balls to say it but Ron Paul.
Ron Paul is for marijuana rights.
And yes, he is a Libertarian Republican, and yes, i am whole heartily supporting him for President.
None of the main stream media has even announced on T.V. that Ron Paul is running, no one but Lou Dobbs i might add. Lou Dobbs interviewed Ron Paul last month about it.
Sometime this month though, CNN is hosting the Republican Presidential Debate and Ron Paul will be there. So I'll definitely be recording that.
Two years ago i probably would of never in a million years support a Republican. But i've come to realize, that the simply fact is... There is NO difference between say Barack Obama and Rudy Guiliani. No difference.
Now i'm not saying ALL Democrats are bad, there are some good ones, but the "all stars" at this point are all bought and paid for, especially Hillary Clinton.

Cynthia McKinney from Georgia i liked a lot, and she got it bad right before she was voted out of Congress.
She was the ONLY one to question Rumsfeld about the TRILLIONS missing from the Pentagon, which Rumsfeld was being questioned about on September 10, 2001. And the accounting office that held all of the Pentagons records, just happen to be located right where the "plane" had hit it.


Both parties are bought and paid for, the Democrats are total hypocrites and are no better than the Republicans. I'm convinced. I'm totally convinced.
So i'm supporting on of the very few Republicans who voted against the war in the first place, and voted against sending more troops over to Iraq.

Ron Paul is very similar to Dennis Kucinich. In fact i really believe these two should get together a Paul/Kucinich ticket, that could actually work.

The video i posted earlier is a speech he gave on the House floor on July 10, 2003. It was a speech called "Neo-CONNED!"
A man in Kentucky thought he'd be a good citizen, the way he was seeing his country fall to shit and he made a copy of this Ron Paul speech and gave a copy of it to a police officer.
The next day the police officer arrested the man and charged him with making a "terroristic threat."
Unfuckingbeleveable when you listen to the whole speech. All Ron Paul says is simply the truth. He tells of what the Neo Cons have done sense they took office.
The video i posted is where the speech really gets good, it's part 9 of 11 i think. The whole speech is about 45 minutes long.
But going through Ron Paul speeches i have to be impressed.

So check him out, he's the shit!

"Let it not be said that no one cared, that no one objected once it’s realized that our liberties and wealth are in jeopardy. A few have, and others will continue to do so, but too many—both in and out of government—close their eyes to the issue of personal liberty and ignore the fact that endless borrowing to finance endless demands cannot be sustained. True prosperity can only come from a healthy economy and sound money. That can only be achieved in a free society." -Ron Paul July 10, 2003