This video pretty much sums up Ron Paul :-)
If there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. I'm gonna wait it out If there were no desire to heal The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. I still may. And I still may. Be patient. I must keep reminding myself of this...
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Thursday, July 12, 2007

"Pasteurized process cheese, for example, is made from one or more cheeses, such as cheddar or colby, and may have cream or anhydrous milkfat added. The cheese is blended and heated with an emulsifier—typically a sodium or potassium phosphate, tartrate, or citrate—and other optional ingredients such as water, salt, artificial color, and spices or other flavorings.
Pasteurized process cheese food is a variation of process cheese that may have dry milk, whey solids, or anhydrous milkfat added, which reduces the amount of cheese in the finished product. It must contain at least 51% of the cheese ingredient by weight, have a moisture content less than 44%, and have at least 23% milkfat."
So cheese food is something edible, and contains at least half of what it purports to be." - http://www.foodmuseum.comHere i am at 3 in the morning on my night off, and i can't sleep! I hate nights like this.
Too many thoughts floating around in my head right now i guess.
The next 2 weeks i'll be working a lot more than usual, my boss is officially on vacation for 2 weeks after today.
I'm kind of looking forward to it actually, i work a lot better and i get into it a lot more when she's not around and doesn't come up to me 3 or 4 times during the night to bitch about something or someone.
I've really been getting into my cooking lately. The last three or four days i've cooked my ass off.
Some good things and some definite disappointments. I tried Giada De Larentiis's "Zeppole", it's Italian street food, a pastry deep fried in olive oil and rolled in vanilla cinnamon sugar.
Sounds good huh? Well, i dunno if i just didn't scoop out the dough small enough or if i didn't fry em long enough, but they came out to taste like an eclair kinda without the chocolate. Clarissa said she liked em but i didn't , i didn't like the weird creaminess in the middle, i expected it to be more of like a Mexican Sopapia.
My second miss was my spaghetti from dinner tonight. I've been kind of letting my mind flow on certain foods i feel comfortable with and creating my own dishes finally and so far i still need a lot of practice and a lot more different flavor combinations i need to taste.
Tonight i did a spicy sausage tomato sauce with spaghetti and chunks of fresh mozzarella, with freshly grated Parmigano Reggiano. The sausage i used didn't flow very well with the pasta i think. The sausage brought a weird smokey flavor to the traditional Italian flavors i had used in the tomato sauce.
I haven't gone too off into the far unknown space of my imagination when it comes to cooking just yet. I've played with Philly Cheese steak, different breakfast dishes and some pasta ones.
But i'm not totally confident with my cooking skills at this point in time.
It's on the house wife level, sad but true.
For one i'm struggling with such easy foods to cook that i cook all the time! The other night i finally got it to the point where it wasn't completely fucked up. Steak and french fries.
It's been so hard to cook a steak medium well! Seriously, now i know why chefs don't like cooking em like that cuz it sucks! I always try to cook them medium well cuz that's how Justin likes em. It's either overdone or too pink. I'm becoming a medium person now, i use to like steaks well done, but then i slowly started to like em medium well. Now that's just too brown for me.
I probably should use a thermometer but i wanna learn how to tell if it's done without having to use one.
And the french fries, i have such a patience problem when i fry them, or i'm putting in too many at a time and they're not browning properly.
And finally nacho cheese! Before i got into cooking i use to make nachos at home by buying a can of that Mission Nacho Cheese "Sauce" but they discontinued it a while back and i've been trying to think up ways in my mind to reproduce that cheese at home.
So i bought a block of Velveeta Cheese and at first microwaved it. Big fucking mistake. That disgusting cheese just turned into like a paste after it chilled for a little while.
So then i melted it over the stove with some cream. Fantastic! Got the nacho cheese consistency i was looking for but... the nasty taste of the Velveeta Cheese ruined the entire nacho experiance!
I haven't eaten that cheese in so long, i'm just becoming to realize just how disgusting and nasty it is! When i was a kid i use to love Velveeta Cheese!
For one, it doesn't even taste like cheese! Jesus it has this thick disgusting taste that just lingers in your mouth.
Anyway, so next time i'm gonna do the same thing over the stove with the cream but use real fucking cheese this time. maybe use a fontina cheese, and some others they use in fondue.
Ugh, fuck Velveeta!
Ok, it's almost 4 i better get to bed or i'll be sleeping all morning.
See ya..
Sunday, July 08, 2007
This year i took a different approach to the holiday than i ever have in years past.
I've really been reading a lot and watching shows on the American Revolution (well, when cable actually shows anything like that.)
This year the History Channel and the Military Channel had a day long marathon on The American Revolution. That was nice of them wasn't it?
But reading and watching all of this shit has really made me very sad at the state of our nation right now. I mean i was sad and pissed about it to begin with, but i look back at what the founding fathers fought for and how we live under a dictatorship now.
I mean Dick Cheney has pretty much come out and said he can do whatever he wants, and the law does not apply to him. That by definition is a dictatorship.
Ya know and never mind the Presidential Directive that Bush signed real quietly a few months back that gave him dictatorial powers, and not one peep in the press whatsoever, except for those few patriots left in the American Press who still pay attention.
Anyhow, for my own personal celebration of this years 4th of July, i went back and read quotes from some of our Founding Fathers during the Revolutionary War and decided to post them up here on my blog. Take the time to read them and remember the real reason why we celebrate the 4th of July, and how we got to that point of freeing an entire nation.
I have to be honest, reading some of these quotes did nothing more than make me cry, it's so obvious we are living under tyranny now.
How strangely will the Tools of a Tyrant pervert the plain Meaning of Words! - Samuel Adams
It does not require a majority to prevail, but rather an irate, tireless minority keen to set brush fires in people's minds. - Samuel Adams
Guard with jealous attention the public liberty. Suspect everyone who approaches that jewel. Unfortunately, nothing will preserve it but downright force. Whenever you give up that force, you are inevitably ruined. -Patrick Henry
It behooves you, therefore, to think and act for yourself and your people. The great principles of right and wrong are legible to every reader; to pursue them requires not the aid of many counselors. The whole art of government consists in the art of being honest. Only aim to do your duty, and mankind will give you credit where you fail. - Thomas Jefferson
The spirit of resistance to government is so valuable on certain occasions, that I wish it to be always kept alive. It will often be exercised when wrong, but better so than not to be exercised at all. I like a little rebellion now and then. It is like a storm in the atmosphere. - Thomas Jefferson
On every unauthoritative exercise of power by the legislature must the people rise in rebellion or their silence be construed into a surrender of that power to them? If so, how many rebellions should we have had already? - Thomas Jefferson
Without Freedom of Thought there can be no such Thing as Wisdom; and no such Thing as Public Liberty, without Freedom of Speech. - Benjamin Franklin
Our country is in danger, but not to be despaired of. Our enemies are numerous and powerful; but we have many friends, determining to be free, and heaven and earth will aid the resolution. On you depend the fortunes of America. You are to decide the important question, on which rest the happiness and liberty of millions yet unborn. Act worthy of yourselves. - Joesph Warren
These are the times that try men's' souls. The summer soldier and the sunshine patriot will, in this crisis, shrink from the service of their country; bur that stands it now, deserves the love and thanks of man and woman. Tyranny.....is not easily conquered; yet we have this consolation with us, that the harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. -Thomas Paine
If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace. -Thomas Paine
Freedom had been hunted round the globe; reason was considered as rebellion; and the slavery of fear had made men afraid to think. But such is the irresistible nature of truth, that all it asks, and all it wants, is the liberty of appearing. -Thomas Paine
Revolution was effected before the war commenced. The Revolution was in the minds and hearts of the people . . . . This radical change in the principles, opinions, sentiments, and affections of the people was the real American Revolution. -John Adams
I must study politics and war that my sons may have liberty to study mathematics and philosophy. -
John Adams
Let justice be done though the heavens should fall. -John Adams
Government is instituted for the common good; for the protection, safety, prosperity, and happiness of the people; and not for profit, honor, or private interest of any one man, family, or class of men; therefore, the people alone have an incontestable, unalienable, and indefeasible right to institute government; and to reform, alter, or totally change the same, when their protection, safety, prosperity, and happiness require it. -John Adams
Monday, July 02, 2007

"I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existence either. See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you." - Tool
I'm about to have a fucking meltdown. My level of tolerance is starting to drift away... far away. My anger and level of disgust for the general American population for our tolerance of fascism sweeping our nation has reached it's breaking point.
I mean i seriously think i need to go to therapy to deal with all this pent up anger i have towards everyone! I've discovered i CAN NOT have a rational conversation with anyone! Maybe on the Tool message boards i can find like minded people there who agree with the way i look at the world, but there's still those people out there who are just content to live under the new America where the Bill of Rights is no longer.
But even on the tool message boards i get those idiots still wrapped up in there left/right paradigm and it just makes me wanna puke!!
Like when I found out Ron Paul was being banned for the Iowa Republican debate (they're calling it a "forum" but it's still a debate, they're distorting words again) i put up a call to action thread to call Iowans for Tax Relief and Iowa Christian Alliance, the two groups banning Ron Paul. I got Ron Paul supporters but then i got stupid Amy Goodman spawn replying,"Ron Paul doesn't believe in a womans right to choose, so i can't vote for him" or i'd get shit like,"He wants to get rid of too much of the Federal Government, and for me a left leaning voter, i can't vote for him."
JESUS CHRIST!! The country is fucking gone and Ron Paul is the only one who can beat Hillary Clinton and these fucking idiots are worried about bullshit!! No Ron Paul is not against a womans right to choose he has said he himself is against abortion but he thinks it should be left up to states not the federal government.
And he fucking read the constitution and understood what the founding fathers meant by smaller limited government, that's why he wants to cut so many federal programs that are just a humongous bureaucracy to begin with. THAT'S WHY HE'S A CONSTITUTIONALIST YOU MORONS!!!
I mean jesus, you really wanna keep around the Department of Education, the mother of the No Child Left Behind Act? Gee, that program was a giant fucking success.
And repealing the 16th amendment! Just for that alone and closing the Federal Reserve would solve a WHOLE lot of our problems in this country. And you'd know that if you fucking went and looked up the facts about the income tax fraud. The money you pay for the income tax does not go back to the country it goes to the Private bank the Federal Reserve to pay back the debt, because the Federal Reserve is printing money out of thin air, it's value is not backed up by silver or gold like it used to be.
Our money is of no more value than Monopoly money!! Do you fucking realize that???
Back when i was still calling myself a liberal, i knew shit was bad but until i had my paradigm shifted and my eyes opened i never really realized the bigger picture and just how fucked up things are! And i can't even go into all of it on this blog, i'd be blogging for days!
What Ron Paul would do for this country if he was just given the chance has actually given this pessimist HOPE for once in her life!! It's up there with what would of JFK done if he had never been killed, i mean it's THAT significant to get Ron Paul the Republican nomination.
I'm sure as hell not voting for Hillary or Obama. And who ever gets the nomination for the Democrats, i don't care who it is cuz they're all fucking worthless scum who won't change a fucking thing but shred the Constitution even further, and most likely drop a bomb on Iran!!!
Whoever gets it I'll be downtown protesting when they come to Denver for their convention of morons.
Oh man..... deeps breaths. See what i mean when i say i think i'm having a meltdown and i need to go into therapy?
Shit is really fucked up and i seem to be the only one in the state of Colorado who can see it! AHHHH!!!
I mean i'm to the point where i want to take gun shooting lessons because the ship is fucking sinking and i'm not going to go jump on a life boat. I'm going down with the ship and i'm going down shooting, just like the patriots in the revolutionary war. My mom has even said we need a new revolution!
Shit, if my own mother is even calling for Revolution you know shit if fucked!
Seriously i am so pent up with anger and rage over almost everything now! The media, the government, the cover-ups, the lies. The endless, endless LIES!!!!
I was watching on the History Channel "The JFK Assassination: Beyond Conspiracy" and while i sat through that 2 hour piece of shit "documentary" which is a huge lie in itself because it was a total white wash! They left out SO MANY key things about Oswald, Jack Ruby and towards the end it was just one giant hit piece against "JFK" the Oliver Stone movie.
At one point they were interviewing a member of the House Select Committee on Assassinations, and he made a statement,"no one has made a statement to this day about any evidence of it being anyone else other than Lee Harvey Oswald."
I wanted to throw shit at the T.V. so FUCKING BAD!!!
With the E. Howard Hunt tape just recently been released to public, and the information he has given before he died, totally rips apart that entire documentary and it should NOT be playing on the History Channel because it's just spreading disinformation and distorting reality.
I seriously was MAD!! I've even written to the History Channel about it and bitched at them for playing that government fabricated lie on national television.
AHHHHH!!!!!
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