Wow, reading that last post was crazy. I was all happy and in love with life...well happiness doesn't always last does it? LOL So things are a little different for me now almost five months later. Still have not made a placement with my recruiting. I have six recruiters working under me, 2 have been along for the ride for the last four months and they have not landed a single placement either. I love the work don't get me wrong, it's just what my dear cousin failed to tell me is that it takes time to place these people! My one friend who I worked with at Whole Foods and who I felt sorry for because he got fired for bullshit reasons and I got him on board with the recruiting gig with my cousin...well, he landed up turning into backstabbing asshole. We went out one night, a couple nights before Xmas and got REALLY drunk and we landed up sleeping together, and after that he got all crazy! He wouldn't reply to my emails about work, he never reported into me what he had been doing with his candidates all week. Then my cousin calls me and says that he called him and told him,"I don't know how to handle Cristal. I can't work with her." So my cousin let him leave my team and recruit solo, but I'd still get a cut of whatever commissions he makes cause i recommended him. I got SO pissed and sent him a text saying,"You should have been man enough to come to me with whatever the fuck it was that was bothering you, and not take it to my fucking family. You are a little fucking man, and karma is going to come and bite you in the ass" or something to that extent. The sex wasn't even good anyway, he had the smallest dick I've ever seen in my life, it was fucking awful!!
Anyway, so speaking of sex. I landed up going to California to see Cory finally. It was really nice, he was a sweet heart. We had sex of coarse, that was the whole reason I went out there. It was ok, not the best sex I've ever had, just like my friend Nina warned me, Cory has a small dick too, so it was kinda disappointing, but I liked it. lol I came home and got all crazy emotional. As the days went by and I let it sink in, i realized that i kind of have feelings for Cory. I cried a lot, cause it's an impossible situation, he's in California, I'm here in Colorado. So to try and get over Cory I started on line dating. Fucking stressful shit man! I came across some creepy guys man, met some nice ones. I didn't do it for very long, maybe like 2 weeks till i decided to take down my profile. I decided to stop chasing men. My whole life I've done that, and i decided to just give in to fate, let go, and see what destiny has in store for me. I couldn't move on without telling Cory how I felt though. I sent him a message on FB telling him how I felt. He didn't reply, which is fine, i told him in my message he didn't have to, i just needed to get it off my chest. Seeing pics of him on FB kills me though, i do really like him, it sucks to think about and i try not to. It got to the point where i even started reading Eat Pray Love, which is awesome! I'm half way through it, i haven't read it in about a week or so though.
Anyway, moving on from my depressing love life. Back to my career. So i'm quickly draining my savings cause i haven't been making any money besides Etsy and child support, and with both of those I don't make shit. I even filed for a review of my child support case with Clarissa's dad cause he's only paying like $150 a month. I haven't heard anything back from that yet. I'm getting pretty close at getting a hospital administrator in Las Vegas an interview, on Thursday i even begged my cousin to help me cause this chick has a stellar resume, and there's two positions in Vegas she'd be perfect for. So i've been kinda stressing about money, so i put in my resume (and by the way, now that i read resumes for a living, i redid my own resume, and i must say, my resume looks really fucking good now lol) and some applications for a few jobs. Just so i can have some sort of income coming in. Einstein Bros Bagels emailed me back today for the baker position i sent my resume in for. I was kind of excited at first, then i started researching reviews of the jobs for Einstein Bros and a lot of people complain of the same things i complained about about Whole Foods. Uh oh. Working your ass off for peanuts, management are assholes, equipment sucks. And i'm not entirely sure if my position i applied for is straight up just baking, i think customer service may be involved. The hours look really cool, and people said they are very flexible with scheduling, the stores usually close at five in the afternoon, and bakers usually come in at three in the morning, so it would be almost like a night job again. I dunno, i go in for an interview on Monday. It's kind of far too, it's over by where my brother works which is a good thirty minute drive. We'll see i guess. Sigh.
I wish things were better, at the end of the year i was on such a high and now my emotions are getting the best of me i think. Mostly men problems. fuck men, seriously!! lol My friends are awesome, Lisa has a kinda sorta boyfriend now, but she caught him sexting some chick on FB and now she doesn't trust him, my friend Shroomy got engaged, Jenni as far as I know hates men too lol :)
I just REALLY need things to start coming together in my life, i really need these placements to start happening cause i really need to move out. i don't have my independence anymore and it's killing me. I even thought of doing an Eat Pray Love and living four months in Seattle, four months in Sedona and four months somewhere else, i couldn't decide where. Of coarse in the back of my mind I was thinking Livermoore, CA where Cory is, but when i posted it on FB he commented and said that that wasn't realistic with kids, but a great idea. Of coarse i agreed with him. Ugh. Shoot me.