So today i bought a desk for my desk top finally.   Before when i'd get on i had my keyboard & my monitor on top of my box of storable food.  It was kinda cheap, got it at Bed Bath and Beyond, but hey, it's SO much better than having to sit on the floor!  I feel like my life is slowly but surely starting to come together w/out Justin in my life.  I'm still very sad and heart broken over all of this, but i gotta keep my sanity together for my kids, they're looking to me for strength to get through this and i got to show that everything is gonna be ok.  I'm slowly working my way up till i can get my own place, i can't wait for the day when that happens.  Work is going good, still getting to get to know everyone. There's a lot of new people coming on, so i don't feel so alone.  There's about four new people who started in the last two weeks. I'm really bad with names.  There's this one girl who talks to me a lot, and i still don't know her name, but she is really sweet and super nice. She came in to where i was working and gave me a sample of macadamia nut gelato. She said she's gonna take me for a "gelato break" one of these days coming.  She's already asking when i work next, it's actually really nice making friends again, it's taking my mind off of the fucked up things Justin was doing to my daughter.
There's this one guy i work with who i get along with pretty well, we're about the same age and listen to the same music pretty much.  He had his ipod on and Johnny Cash and Willie Nelson came on, and i got so happy!  Then i had my ipod on one day and he's was all impressed.
The girl i talk to a lot and him apparently like each other and arranged to go on a date, but the guy never followed through with it, so the other day she was all asking me advice on what she should do.  It was funny, apparently she's only 19, which makes perfect sense to me now that i've gotten to know her, she really is kinda immature.  It's cute though, a little "office romance" i got the scoop on! :)
Anyhow, just wanted to post about my new computer desk, i'm real happy about it. My dad helped me and my daughters put it together.  I probably could of put it together myself, but he wanted to help, it was nice doing stuff with my dad and the girls.  
I'm slowly starting to get together everything i need for when i finally move out.  Some of the major stuff i think i've gotten out of the way, like the t.v., the couch.  I still need a table, some chairs.  It'll all come together, i'll really worry about that stuff later, right now i only have so much space to put stuff.  It's weird, i literally am rebuilding my whole life with 2 kids now, all by myself.  It sucks i'm not gonna lie!  Well, don't dwell on the negative, with every dark night there is a bright day right?  Well it's almost 2 in the morning and i should go to bed.  Gotta work the next 3 days, then i got the next 3 days off.  They had me working full time, then cut my hours this week.  Oh well, what are you gonna do?  See ya....